I was seven years old when I learned I had a soul. This was where Jesus would come when I received Holy Communion, and I was to prepare the place carefully. Sweep it clean and tidy, Sister instructed; no sin allowed.
I pictured this item of my personhood quite vividly. I saw it as oval shaped, pearly white, and resting in the center of my chest. A venial sin would spot it, a mortal sin (heaven forbid) would turn it black as a lump of coal. It was like a little house inside me, where Jesus could come and rest.
I’m now many years past seven. I no longer envision a white oval, shining like a pearl. I do, however, marvel at the truth embedded in this simple childhood picture.
“Here I stand, knocking at the door. If anyone hears Me calling and
opens the door, I will enter his house and have supper with Him, and he
with Me.” (Revelation 3:20)
“Anyone who loves Me will be true to
My word, and My Father will love him; We will come to him and make our
dwelling place with him.” (John 14:22)
What an astonishing
reality. There really IS a dwelling place inside me, set aside for God
Himself. A cloister of the heart, a sanctuary. And it’s not a refuge
for me alone.
In the days when He walked the earth,
Jesus found places of refuge. Certainly He was in need of them, as He
was hunted down, mocked, misunderstood, beaten, spat upon, and finally
killed. He found refuge in a womb, a manger, the arms of Mary and
Joseph, with friends, and in a little house in Bethany. In such places
Jesus was cared about and loved.
As we know, misunderstanding of Jesus
did not cease with His crucifixion. The world has never, as a whole,
reached out to embrace Christ and His teachings. He is still “spat
upon.” He’s discounted, laughed at, shunned in various ways – often
before our eyes. I may hear Him mocked this very day.. or dismissed as
unimportant. I might hear His Name used as a swear word.
If that happens, can I remember to take a moment to offer a prayer of praise and love to Him in the solitude of my heart?
“A cloistered heart
accepts God’s grace to love Jesus Christ in the midst of a world that
does not love Him; to embrace His will in a world which does not embrace
it. Thus the cloistered heart becomes a place of refuge not only for
us, but for Christ Himself. To create such a refuge is a primary part
of the cloistered heart’s apostolate.” (from The Cloistered Heart (book)
“Jesus, here is my heart; let it be a little cozy resting place for yourself.” (St. Faustina)
“Make my soul…Your cherished dwelling
place, Your home of rest. Let me never leave You there alone, but keep
me there all absorbed in You, in living faith, adoring You.”
(Elizabeth of the Trinity)
"I try always to be a Bethany for Jesus, so that He may rest here." (St. Faustina)
Painting: Semiradsky, Christ, Martha, Maria
(the above is a combination of earlier posts from this blog)
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(the above is a combination of earlier posts from this blog)
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Beautiful, Nancy! Just beautiful! I once knew a priest, now gone to his reward, who would tell us to make our hearts a Bethany for Jesus. Has Jesus ever needed such resting places more than perhaps in our own time. Thank you for reminding us! <3
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DeleteYes to what Patricia said.....this is beautiful..."To be a Bethany." I love how you you envisioned your soul as "oval shaped, pearly white and resting in the center of my chest." Your prelude to "The Cloistered Heart." Wonderful quotations too. The painting is full of light and great details. Thanks Nancy!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much. I can still picture that oval "soul" today... iridescent, of course!
Delete"Iridescent" and shimmering for certain!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you!
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