I was spending time in a monastery - not hidden in the woods somewhere, but situated in the historic edges of large, busy city. As a retreatant, I stayed in the cloister.
One of the nuns later apologized for my being housed in a cell overlooking the sidewalk (rather than the cloister garden). No need for regrets, said I.
I was exactly where I needed to be.
"Chant, as we prayed this morning, curled around me. I was nestled, as a baby in its mother's gentle arms. Lilting voices lifted like the softest of lullabies, and I was stilled. Now I sit in my cell, looking out the window...
The houses across the street 'look at this one,' and this one 'looks at them.' They share a narrow street, yet they are divided by a world, by an entire culture. How like a cloistered heart looking at the face of someone across a room, a street, a yard, out a car window, in a store, in the midst of a family gathering.
I watch the sky turn light outside my window. The city is waking as I write this. Cars, buses, planes, all move along their way for one more day. Birds chatter, unmindful of the ways of man, of the city of man that is this bustling metropolis, this powerful and mighty place of power among the nations of earth.
Perhaps I see contrast as much as anything as I sit here. Black branches stand in silhouette against a lightening sky. Cars rush by below me; silver, gray, maroon. Birds call out above me; silver, gray, maroon.
Such an important city. Such human power in these houses and streets. And all the while, the sky stretches above all and is over all; unnoticed, for the most part.
The cloistered heart is a "city" sort of vision. We must learn to sing the songs of God in a land removed from Him. To sing the Magnificat even as we live the Pieta. Ours are gentle melodies in a land that has forgotten the song. Like birds calling from the treetops, like warblers who sing in the city of man, I must join the chorus.
I must sing, and I must allow God to do what He wishes with the song."
Painting: Paul Cornoyer, The Plaza After Rain
You truly are a beautiful soul, Nancy. This post is like a little taste of heaven.
ReplyDeleteMary, what a very kind thing to say. Thank you for being so sweet.
DeleteI love what you said in your final paragraph: "To sing the Magnificat even as we live the Pieta." This is certainly something I've been learning the last couple weeks through my patron saint, Bernadette of Lourdes. Perfectly resonated in my soul <3
ReplyDeleteThank you, Michelle. And what a wonderful patron you have :) !
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ReplyDeleteThis beautiful entry brought me to tears, Nancy...speaking to something very dear to my heart. Thank you so much! xx
ReplyDeleteThank you, Trish. Fourteen years later, I can still feel the sense of that morning as if it had just happened, as I sat looking out upon a city beginning its daily rounds. It was like living the very core of the cloistered heart in picture form.
DeleteOh WOW! This is extraordinarily beautiful writing from the heart and soul. There are so many gorgeous lines,( like all of them) "Chant, as we prayed this morning, curled around me." Wonderful. I love the comparison of the cloistered heart looking at the things of the world like the buildings to one another. That is so interesting. The end line is powerful. So inspiring Nancy...Thank you for your God centered gift here.
ReplyDeleteHow can it be that you left this beautiful comment over a YEAR ago and I didn't respond to it?! I suppose I thought I had :). Thank you! Your words mean so much!!!
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