Sometimes, at this time of year, a question drifts into my mind. It's always the same.
"Is there room in Your heart for Me?"
I immediately think of innkeepers. I think of a house in Bethlehem
where travelers once lodged, where no room was found when the time came
for Jesus to be born.
As a cloistered heart, I have said that my primary "apostolate" is that
of making my heart a refuge for Jesus in the midst of a world which does
not, on the whole, love and honor Him. Christ is in my heart; this I
know. But sometimes I wonder. What sort of "refuge" am I offering to
Him? Am I providing a place of welcome and adoration? Or could it be
that I've allowed my heart to become cluttered with so many other things
that I have little room in my life for Christ Himself.
The inn in Bethlehem was not filled with "bad" people on the night Mary
and Joseph arrived seeking shelter. It had no room for the holy family
only because others had gotten there first.
Does Jesus find little space in some of my days simply because the hours fill up with everything else first?
Do I get up in the morning and put off prayer until I get one thing
accomplished, and then one more thing - and do I ever find that the day
has sped by without my spending any time at all in communication with
God? I am deeply ashamed to admit that more often than I care to
mention, this has been the case.
My heart seems, today, like a manger filled with clutter. Sometimes it's as if there's no room in it for the most important Person in the universe. Just imagine the "logic" of that. And so I come today to Jesus, asking HIM to clear out all the
distractions. I ask our Blessed Mother, who so
tenderly prepared a place for Jesus, to help prepare my heart to be a
fitting refuge for my Lord. May she re-arrange my priorities as one
might arrange pieces of straw in a manger.
As my Christmas gift this year, I ask that the same be done for you. I
ask that all our hearts be prepared as places of loving refuge for the
King and Messiah Whose birth we are about to celebrate. The world did
not welcome Him when He came to earth as an infant; it does not
welcome Him still. You and I have the opportunity of welcoming Him in a world that does not do so.
May our hearts prepare Him room.
This post is a slightly edited version of the one published here on December 21, 2011.
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