Living within the will of God, making a specific choice to do so, can be a pleasant thing to talk about. It's nice to write of, good to meditate upon, and the idea fits well in the pages of a "cloistered heart" blog.
It's just a bit different when it comes to the "doing" of it. Oh, it's not so bad when God's will and mine are precisely the same. But the funny thing is: at some point(s), my will and God's are going to conflict.
What happens then?
Tonight I'm looking at the "walls" of God's will - the boundaries in which I am "enclosed" if I genuinely want to live for Him. I'm thinking about what the Church teaches on particular subjects. I'm considering Scripture. Wow - there are some tough things to live up to in Scripture! Pray for my persecutors? Love my neighbor as myself? Do not judge?!
Sometimes I find myself picking and choosing. I'll live this commandment, but not that other one. I'll go right along with this chapter in the Catechism, but surely I'm not expected to take that one seriously. I mean... c'mon! Who does?
If I intend to live cloistered in heart, then I "does." I don't just go grabbing stones out of my enclosure wall. For if I do, it won't be long before that wall - that high, beloved wall built by Our Lord Himself to protect me - comes swiftly tumbling down. And I am left unprotected, unshielded, vulnerable to attacks on my life, my spirit, my immortal soul.
God's will and mine are going to conflict. At various points, this is going to happen. In order for me to choose God's will for Him and not just for my own self-interest, this HAS to happen.
For if God's will and mine are always the same, however could I make a truly free choice for His?
"Don't lose heart, I entreat you; gradually train your will to follow God's will wherever it leads." (St. Francis de Sales)